HEARTBROKEN...REALITY

Sobbing, I walked into the cold, windy afternoon air. I looked into the blue sky and wanted to scream that it is just not fair.. moments before, I watched my mother settle down for a nap. Her words echoed in my ears..

"You get old and then you die a long, hard, slow death."

It was not like anything I had heard her say before to me. I think that in a lucid moment she just could see the reality of what she was going through all these months.

I sat in the car a good long time, trying to clear the frustration out of my system. I have to be able to see to drive my way back home the two miles to my
house.  I started the car and slowly drove out of the long driveway, when something
caught my eye in a sudden motion.

Bounding across the road at least 10 deer running at full gallop.

I was so glad I had stopped for a few minutes and not traveled that

road or something bad could have happened.

2011 came in here with blue skies, green grassy fields and

many thoughts of what the year will bring.

My father died on New Years Day

seventeen years ago.

WE MISS YOU DAD!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HERE'S HOPING YOU ALL HAVE A HAPPY,HEALTHYAND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR!!

OUR TREE 2010

Last year we didn't have a tree here at home because Mom was at the Tendercare  rehab center during the holidays. This year I dug out our four ft tree and Mom helped me decorate it. Mom loves the holidays, even though there are so few of us around.

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE YOUR TREES DECORATED FOR THE HOLIDAYS!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

I will be updating here again soon..until then..

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL FROM
OUR HOUSE TO YOURS!! MAY GOD BLESS YOU!. 

ISN'T THAT THE WAY??

YOU are minding your own business driving down the road when all of the sudden you see those red and blue lights behind you. That sick to the stomach feeling comes over you and you think.. "what the heck did I do?".. You slow down only to see the public safety car pass you by. (They don't call them police or cop cars around here
anymore.) What a RELIEF!! You speed back up and in no time here comes another one moving fast. Now you get curious as to the reason. My mind really goes to car-deer accidents first in pretty good weather. I was wrong on that one though. Coming over the hill into the flatter part of the freeway, I see a long line of taillights shining and know that this cannot be good. No way out. No roads to turn off of and go another way. Mom panics right away because she will MISS her time to go on for her treatment. I tell her that "this is why I take the back road..more ways to go." We move ever so slowly..
it seems like it takes hours to go only a mile down the road. The clock says only 10 minutes have passed. By the time we reach the accident, state police and sheriff cars are they helping assist. One car is headed toward us in the median strip, the other in the ditch on the other side. Someone had really made a bad mistake at trying to enter the freeway and have no place to go. We get to where we can leave the freeway and I do it gladly. We cannot miss treatment..it just cannot be done.  I dread the winter, with life sustaining treatment, that has to be given, you cannot get stuck anywhere, you get there "any way" you can. There is a saying by John Lennon. "Life is what happens to you when you are busy making other plans." We make plans now around what is most important and everything else can just go on the back burner. The back roads will get you there eventually..Mom laughed..slow going but safe.