I am sick of just trying to keep going. I am sick of getting behind in everything. What the heck is going on? I look at life so differently now. I hate the way things are and seem stuck..stuck and cannot get out of my own way. I have "adapted" one person said to me. Yes, you could say that and then again.. NO I haven't. The pressure every day to just do one little thing that can help out..well it's not easy. The situation is grim,and trying to find a way out of it.. tiring. Is it any wonder I don't blog any more as this seems to be a daily thing for me. Pick yourself up and move on..easy to say if you are not involved. Easy if you are not attached to the situation. I am surrounded daily with reminders of past things and need to move on and then not able to. Sounds like depression to me. I have a lot of things to work through. I get joy from sun light..watching nature, breathing fresh air, cold or not, and spending time on line searching for new ideas. I got my retirement checks all sorted out, what a hassle that was. Seems powers that be could not figure out some things and kept asking me the same questions over and over. I dreaded hearing the phone ring. I am setting some goals for the winter. One thing at a time..one thing at a time. This too shall pass..
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Sis, I wondered how you are doing. I think of you each time I open a book which is every day as well as other times. I still have that old old bookmark you gave me. The words you wrote wore off but I still have it. I think it was 2006. :-)
Are you still with your sister? Can one of the social workers help by giving you ideas or just exploring options with you?
xoxox
I've been experiencing depression for a couple weeks. I don't know what's going on in your life, but I think mine is 100% due to the time change. I HATE that it's dark at 5 pm, and I hate that the leaves are gone from the trees and the world looks 'blah.' Last night, when I was ready for bed at 7 pm, I prayed. Prayed for this cough to be gone, and prayed for the depression to be gone. If you're the praying type, I suggest it.
Thanks Catrina for visiting.. I pray everyday sometimes twice..it does seem to help. :-)
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